i'm sad about cohost

it was nice while it lasted

took a nights sleep for it to hit, but.

I'm really sad to lose this place, scared of backsliding into old antisocial habits, and not looking forward to losing a place of rest.

like. because of this site and the people on here, I've grown and changed and laughed and loved in ways that I never would have conceived before. I like myself, not just tolerate. I've found people I actively enjoy, rather than people im just nearby. losing our hangout spot has the uncertainty that I'd ever find it again.

I know that its the people, not the venue, but its that much harder where the venue where everyone was shuts down.

when everyone is scattered into crowds full of others and its hard to discern who can be on your side. other places where its easier to hide against the wall rather than jump into a bladed mosh pit.

I want to try to do my best to deliberately stay in touch, but I'm scared ill get worse again and lose it all.

thanks cohost for a wonderful couple years. I'll hold on to that forever, and really really want to try to keep the party going.

this was originally on cohost, but not for much longer, it seems